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14/11/09

On my weekly Nano pep talk, whoever wrote it was talking about how writing a story is like trekking across Australia - when you start, and when you reach the ending you planned, its lovely and beautiful and you feel happy an accomplished.

Sadly there's this huge blob in the middle of Australia that you have to cross in order to do that! That place is The Middle, land of unfortunate Nanoheads who can't remember which way they want to go, full of spiders the size of washing machines, poisonous snakes that will eat you in one gulp and the occasional stinging insect. Fun right?

Well i am currently lost somewhere in The Middle. I know one of my Buddies is a little way ahead of me and i'd really like to catch up. But right now i am rather stuck in a thick patch of mud. *sighs* someone tell me why i chose to do this again? Madness - total insanity.

Of course, i've really cranked up the pressure cos i told my friend that she could have a copy of my book for xmas. that thought should inspire me cos i love her to bits...but the mud! thick sloppy goopey stuff it is! Currently working my way towards the half-way mark - should be there tomorrow. Now that'll be an achievement lol.

Well, back to mud-swimming. Anyone else interested in buying a copy of this book from me by a remote chance?

8/11/09

Well the Nano powers-that-be told me characters would start doing things i never expected. One of them won't co-operate and one of them is now so sarcastic i want to slap him. but i can't, he's the good guy.

My word count is going up so very slowly. Its like watching paint dry only more painful. For anyone actually doing Nano, Compulsive Word Count Checking is not good for you! See a doctor.

I actually have no idea what to write today. I know where i want to get, and i thought up a brand new ending for the story this morning, so that's not the issue. Trouble is, I don't know how to get there. I would go and try some of the Procrastination Station stuff on the website but i have been really badly distracted all day and i should just knuckle down.

Apparently there's a bus strike on tomorrow though - so i might just stay home and get some serious work done then. *evil laugh* .....you didnt hear me say that.

311/09

Don't you just hate it when the nurse is advancing on you with a huge needle and goes "don't worry, you won't feel a thing" ? I do. I went and got my cancer vaccine this morning. The jab itself didn't hurt, kinda like getting your ears pierced - that sort of level.

What hurt was an hour later when i was in a french lesson and realised i couldn't lift my arm horizontally! Still can't! Which is great. My mum thinks this is a legitimate excuse to have tomorrow off school.

I agree because: 1) there's a tiny part of me that just can't be asked.    2) i'd love to stay home and do Nano all day.

I disagree because: 1) when i was home alone earlier in the week i had a panic attack and really dont wanna do that again   2) i have to ask my tutor to help me with my UCAS

Overall verdict? Hate Wednesdays, but I'll do it. Might come home early or something. Ok i'm going to try and type at my normal speed with my half-responding arm and elevate my Nano word count. I think I've hit a wall already...

1/11/09

So I went to the Language Show at Olympia today. Went to some interesting talks about how languages are dying out at a rate of one every ten days - scary stuff that - and about how body language is used in communications. I bought some books on japanese. <sarcasm> 'Cause of course, i don't own any <sarcasm>. And i got a bundle of stuff cheap from a kids chinese stall - its new years type stuff. It has a caligraphy brush in it so that should keep me quiet over the xmas holiday lol. BTW i tried caligraphy with the help of an actual japanese caligraphy teacher. i don't have the 'flow' in it. I blame my lefthanded-ness XD.

Anywho. First day of Nano. Me and a few nanoheads are poking each other on MSN cos we are actually motivated to write something today. I've pulled off 3000 words, though i'm ignoring my french homework so i'm sure that'll bite me on the butt soon. Anyway must get back to writing - my friend is now trying to beat my word count and i can't allow that lol. *flies away*

29/10/09

Still, even with the cinema refusing to play that film before 5pm, it was a good day. I wouldn't have gone to see 'Cirque du Freak' with anyone else - still won't! For one thing, Darren Shan's books just don't grab me. But hey, it was better than Twilight. Speaking of which, anyone read New Moan? lol. I want that for xmas!

So yeah. It wasn't a date. I might have gone with my crush but it was totally not a date! Unfortunately for me. We went to the library, then browsed Waterstone's, and bought sugary sweets in Sainsburys before going to see the film. And you people might not think that's so much fun. I was in my happy place. *sigh*

On a side note, I recommend Cirque du Freak,  I DON'T recommend seeing it during half term, the weekend, or any time when any kid can get in. Believe me, there is nothing more annoying than a gaggle of 13yr-olds going "ohmygod ohmygod ooohno ohmygod" at everything that happens on screen! I hate kids.

why am i the only person who hasn't done their personal statement already? damn you procrastination!

i wrote the first half of it while waiting for french class to start if you can believe that - that's decidedly not the way to do it. I sound like a cheesy 'new car' advert or something. about the only thing that will work in my favour are my references - my french teacher said she'd write one as soon as i ask and she said it'd be "glowing". that made me feel special that did. now if only i could magically scrape a pass in my oral exam it'd all be fine! *sarcastic laughter*

so anyway. yeah i know that by sitting here i'm not working on my statement. I think i'm gonna temporarily give up, i need to go find my exam results from this year anyway. and since i cleared my room out (looking lovely in purple by the way) those could be absolutely anywhere. There's 20 boxes of my stuff downstairs...Just keep smiling, today was a happy day until UCAS invaded the happiness.

16/09/09

Ok so me and my mum went up to london at 9:30 this morning, wandered around london like idiots, and waited around in the wind for almost an hour solely so i could ask about the course "French and an Asian or African language" at UCL's stand for the Unis of London open day. But for some reason they won't let me do japanese. I got so psyched up about finally being able to study my two favourite languages.

Now my choices are reduced to investigating them both at Reading Uni, or studying one or the other on its own. I'm not a happy bunny now. While I hope Reading will let me do both as a joint degree, that means i gotta live in. I pity anyone who boards with me cos i won't be cheerful or social. I'll be a sucky roommate won't i?

Ok well I'm gonna go and investigate my options, that'll probably depress me even more.

14/09/09

First day back at college. Finally there aren't any older students crowding the corridors. Now it's little'uns - but thats ok cos we can step on 'em *evil laugh*. So today has been good all things considered, even if i panicked and asked everyone i knew whether we all had an assembly at 9am and made myself look like an idiot. On the upside my friend from French now sits next to me in English, and I don't need to be in until the afternoon on a monday - awesome huh? We even got let out early! Wheee!

Makes a nice change from sunday - i was volunteering. I wont do that again any time soon. Im not social enough to ask total strangers "would you like to enter our free prize draw?". Harder than it looks! But i was with a friend so that made it bearable - a friend who got me a plushie from her holiday! lol not a bad end to the summer. It was nice to see everyone again, and to get them all into a game of Irish Snap *more evil laughter*. Can't wait for wednesday though, I've got a hundred questions to ask at the uni open day. Lol, it means i dont have to see my tutor group from hell this week either! *victory dance*

ok i think that's enough ranting for now. I need to get the open day info for a friend and i should really do my history homework. ......or i could watch stuff on youtube!

29/08/09

finally! a week is too long to go without all my friends on EP *hugs everyone*. So yeah, just got back from hoiday in Suffolk - and i have the bruises to prove it! (no it wasn't dangerous...i just managed to fall up some stairs). I still haven't done any of the schoolwork i took with me lol. But i managed to read 2 books and complete Mystery Case Files MillionHeir on DS 3 times.

I broke pretty much all my nails emptying the caravan out, but coming home is always my favourite part of a holiday - i miss things. though this does mean i need to get back to cleaning out my room *sigh*. maybe later *goes off to prowl EP*

18/08/09

So today, is officially a good day. My dad has finally passed his test for driving trucks. I was sooo pleased. He doesn't like being stuck at home - to be honest, after two weeks, i started to hate it too. So keeping fingers crossed, he should be out on the road in no time. I have no doubts that he'll pass the practical test - he's driven trucks before. Whoot for him!

At least he has a job, i'm really starting to doubt my plans of working during a gap year. All of my friends who have jobs keep asking me "why do you want that? why do that?", duuuude it's a chance for me to earn my own money! Which i will of course blow on CDs but that's not the point! And my old french teacher suggested doing some work-shadowing at my old school, which would have been cool. But i don't think i can afford it. Partly because i know that with my memory span, being out of the 'school' environment for a year will mean i forget everything. I should email her my thoughts, shouldn't I...where did i put that piece of paper....

14/08/09

lol am i interesting enough to get away with this? pah i dun care!

I feel really proud of myself right now. I just managed to sing Yoru no Uta and not only did i remember all the words, but i did it rather well. My throat didn't suddenly clog up so that's always a bonus. But i did it in my normal voice - normally i change my voice a bit to make it easier when i sing...i don't know how to explain it. So yeah, this is new territory for me. And i like it! whoop!

anyways, the main reason i did this was cos i saw this meme on LJ and decided to steal it. Each answer has to be true, so no making things up. This is a free for all. Anyone who sees this can do it and post it in their own blogs.

3 things that make you happy: 1.     reading a good book 2.     listening to my favourite music 3.     chatting online with people

3 weird things that few people or no one knows about you: 1.     I love teddy bears and all of mine have names (‘cept one cos I haven’t chosen it yet) 2.     enjoy programmes about serial killers 3.     do calligraphy, albeit badly

3 things you can brag about: 1.     I can speak 4 foreign languages to varying degrees 2.     I can swear in 6 3.     I used to know Tolkien’s Song of Nimrodel off by heart and can still recite most of it

3 things you’re ashamed of: 1.I am a mild self-harmer, occasionally 2. my weight and figure 3. I have never been in a relationship

3 things you want to achieve: 1. get a job where I can use my language skills 2. get a BF/GF! 3. go to another GazettE concert XD

3 things you want to do before you die: 1.GazettE concert! 2. learn Japanese fluently, and maybe one or two others 3. visit japan

3 things you love: 1. my friends, every last one of them 2. my CD collection – my personal one that nobody else touches! 3. fireworks!

3 things you hate: 1. homophobes 2. homework overload 3. missing my friends

3 things you did today: 1.cleaned my room a bit 2.did the ironing 3.mooched about ExpPro – as you do

3 things you fear: 1.SPIDERS! 2.unfamiliar situations 3.never having someone love me

3 things you can’t live without: 1.my music 2.my computer 3.my friends

3 things you like about yourself as a person: 1.my language ability 2.my weirdness 3.limited ability to make people laugh

3 of your favorite songs: 1.      Cassis – The GazettE 2.      39GalaxyZ – SuG 3.      Theme – Ayabie

3 of your favorite movies: 1.Pirates of the Caribbean 2 2.Hellboy 3.Hellboy 2

3 things you’ll always remember: 1.my first concert – Within Temptation incidentally 2.my first GazettE concert 3.going to Longleat safari – random, I know

3 things that make you laugh: 1.Jrockers! 2.My friends 3.Michael McIntyre

3 things that make you cry: 1.Frankenstein 2.One of my cousin’s stories 3.Being rejected

3 random things about you: 1.I love Italian food! 2.I can’t cook – like at all 3.I love Mythbusters! Watch it!

14/08/09

Believe it or not, it has been done. The corner of my room that hasn't been touched by the hand of man for the better part of 10years, has finally been cleaned. I didn't know the carpet was still under there!

Yeah I know, that still leaves 70% of my room to go - but hey! That was the area of most concentrated mess! It had been building up for years. Why i didn't do this sooner i don't know. And that's not the best part! I found, hidden away in a plastic box, four of these really old coins. They're amazing. There's two old pennies (one with Elizabeth II one with George VI), a 1942 sixpence, and 1943 farthing. They're so cool! I'm gonna put them in my little treasure trove of things. Where i'll probably dig them up again when i'm moving out and go "wow i never knew i had these"! I'll put my rupees coin and the cool looking tuppence as well. (Tuppence is two pence for anyone not familiar with the british ^^)

*puts them away* Ok, now i feel good. Maybe i should clean more often...*smirks*

08/08/09

Hallelujah~ we're finally home. Holiday's are such a pain this time of year. For one thing, i never wanted to go in the first place. For another, it was sooooooooo hot! i was wilting, literally. And you couldn't get away from it, really. The worst thing - wasps. The mother-pooking bastards were everywhere! Even with all the insect blinds drawn they were still getting in! Not fun.

Still, i am proud of myself - i did the homework that i've been meaning to do for 2 weeks, and i wrote 15 pages (in size 12 font) for a story in doing in a competition. Points for me~